Varlun
September 29th, 2021, 07:54
FG License: Standard
Time Zone: Central Time USA
Day(s) of week, frequency, and time: Any day, any time
Term: Prefer long, no one-shots
Voice: Yes
Game System Preferred: D&D 5E
Game System Experience: D&D 5E and PF 2E
Fantasy Grounds Experience: Quite familiar
Looking for a group with a heavier focus on roleplay!
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Hello! I tend to be long winded, so in order to try and avoid this post being super long, I'm gonna attempt to bullet point stuff. You can skip to the beginning of each bullet point if you want to, but there's plenty of juicy details if you read it all!
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About my character: I already have a pretty much fully thought out character I'm wanting to play. There's potential for wiggle room in the backstory of course, but here's the jist of it.
My character is heavily inspired by The Punisher. I absolutely love the show, and the way the Punisher handles criminals really resonates with my real life morals. I truly believe that some people, people who lack empathy, they don't deserve any mercy. And I'm looking for a game where I can act out the fantasy of bringing bad guys down.
Half-Orc or Variant Human.
Barbarian, Path of the Zealot. This guy is on a path of vengeance, seeking to cut out the "monsters" living among "humanity". He absolutely hates criminals, more specifically those guilty of serious crimes. Rape, murder, kidnapping, and for the most part stealing. Stealing to survive is one thing, but stealing for profit deserves at least a hand cut off. He is ruthless, and has little mercy.
Worships Bahamut. A perfect fit, here's a piece of Bahamut's dogma: Bahamut's dogma was based on justice, nobility, protection, and honor. He taught his followers to always uphold the highest ideals of honor and justice; to be constantly vigilant against evil and to oppose it from all fronts; and to protect the weak, liberate the oppressed, and defend just order. Bahamut advocated a "greater justice" that included fighting against evil and toppling oppressive regimes. He also liked to reward strength of purpose and character in his followers.
Divinely fueled rage. I link him being a Zealot with his worship of Bahamut, and as a result, I roleplay that his rage is divinely granted, by Bahamut. Since "rage" is far more than just being really angry. It's almost supernatural by default, so having it be actually supernatural is a perfect fit.
Chaotic Neutral. A big part of this character is I really want him to ride the line between good and evil. Pretty much everything he does is in the name of good, but the way he goes about them isn't very nice to say the least. He's definitely an "ends justify the means" kind of guy. I'm always searching for ways to make this more complex, as I GENUINELY want him to ride that line- make people wonder if he's going too far- and not just be a good guy that does things in a rough way. I don't want him to be a good guy. I want him to have his flaws.
Background: City Watch. Before becoming a Barbarian, he was a town guard. Nothing too special here, though he did already have a penchant for hunting down criminals and giving them their just desserts. He wasn't quite so ruthless at this point, though. He ended up getting kidnapped one day, as part of a failed raid. He was taken into slavery, then rescued by a follower of Bahamut. This was the catalyst that caused him to become a Barbarian. During his time as a slave, he saw many terrible things that eventually caused a switch to flip inside of him. He became a little unhinged. Assuming the group starts at level 1, he would be pretty well just starting this journey, as he'd be too weak (just from being level 1) to do much on his own. Perhaps for a time he tried to continue working with the City Watch, though it's sort of a Batman situation (or really, the Punisher) where they can't officially recognize him, but they can certainly respect what he's doing.
https://dnd5e.wikidot.com/background:city-watch
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Alright, I hope you found my character interesting! I know I really like them. Now let's get on to some stuff about me.
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About me: There are some real things to discuss here so please, don't skip around.
I'll start with the basics I guess. I'm 26, male, and looking for a long term game. This would likely be the only game I'm a part of, so it would be very important to me. For this reason, there's something I need to be up front about, so hopefully it won't become an issue later on. I hope you stick with me through this part.
I am autistic. Specifically, Aspergers. While I could go for a time and be perceived as normal, eventually it becomes evident that something is off. This usually leads to frustration and complications.
Having Aspergers basically means that I can be pretty bad with social stuff. I have a way of unintentionally getting on people's nerves over time. I'm largely unable to read what should be obvious social cues. For example, when people start to get frustrated with me, and I should take it as a sign to back off or do something different.
At the end of the day, I want to have fun like everyone else. However, I believe I take the game a bit more seriously than most people. This can be a double edged sword. While it can mean things such as wanting to roleplay my character really well, it can also mean that I tend to get hung up on details. I like things to be orderly and make sense. I get that it's a fantasy GAME and people are just here to have fun. I am too. I just like to try and sprinkle a little bit of realism into it where possible. I tend to have long discussions (between sessions) about how things should be.
For example, I once spent a good chunk of time trying to get an understanding of how much the gold in the game was really worth. A perfect example of where this would come in handy would be knowing how much to tip someone, or try to bribe a peasant or a guard. I read through a few articles online, and ended up disagreeing with all of them. I came up with my own system, which simply made use of the income chart. So based on who you're talking to (peasant/guard/noble/etc), different amounts would be necessary to stand out to them. So you just look at the income chart and see what they would roughly be making per day. Tipping someone a day's worth of pay should be quite substantial to them (that would be about $100 or so in real life). Pretty quickly though the party will be swimming in gold and you could bribe a guard with a week or even a month's worth of pay. So yeah, I was pretty satisfied with myself for coming up with this.
Anyway, back on topic. So I suppose the takeaway here is that I will likely require a degree of understanding from the group. I do my absolute best to control myself and I've always been trying to improve. In fact I'm getting ready to start counseling. But there's only so much I can do. It is a genuine disability. And even when people are aware of it and are trying to be understanding, it still has a way of getting to people eventually. I don't want it to sound hopeless, though. I have had people in the past that have understood and never got frustrated with me.
At this point I want to reiterate. I'm here to have fun like everyone else. I do my best to get along with people. I just like to get caught up on details, and I have a way of discussing things which is very combative. When having a discussion, I'm trying to do better about acknowledging things I agree with, or acknowledging that I understand something they said. I tend to skip over that part and just continue on with questions and trying to explain things, which makes it seem like I'm not really listening, when I am.
So yeah. Hopefully I can find a group that's willing to take me on.
Time Zone: Central Time USA
Day(s) of week, frequency, and time: Any day, any time
Term: Prefer long, no one-shots
Voice: Yes
Game System Preferred: D&D 5E
Game System Experience: D&D 5E and PF 2E
Fantasy Grounds Experience: Quite familiar
Looking for a group with a heavier focus on roleplay!
---
Hello! I tend to be long winded, so in order to try and avoid this post being super long, I'm gonna attempt to bullet point stuff. You can skip to the beginning of each bullet point if you want to, but there's plenty of juicy details if you read it all!
---
About my character: I already have a pretty much fully thought out character I'm wanting to play. There's potential for wiggle room in the backstory of course, but here's the jist of it.
My character is heavily inspired by The Punisher. I absolutely love the show, and the way the Punisher handles criminals really resonates with my real life morals. I truly believe that some people, people who lack empathy, they don't deserve any mercy. And I'm looking for a game where I can act out the fantasy of bringing bad guys down.
Half-Orc or Variant Human.
Barbarian, Path of the Zealot. This guy is on a path of vengeance, seeking to cut out the "monsters" living among "humanity". He absolutely hates criminals, more specifically those guilty of serious crimes. Rape, murder, kidnapping, and for the most part stealing. Stealing to survive is one thing, but stealing for profit deserves at least a hand cut off. He is ruthless, and has little mercy.
Worships Bahamut. A perfect fit, here's a piece of Bahamut's dogma: Bahamut's dogma was based on justice, nobility, protection, and honor. He taught his followers to always uphold the highest ideals of honor and justice; to be constantly vigilant against evil and to oppose it from all fronts; and to protect the weak, liberate the oppressed, and defend just order. Bahamut advocated a "greater justice" that included fighting against evil and toppling oppressive regimes. He also liked to reward strength of purpose and character in his followers.
Divinely fueled rage. I link him being a Zealot with his worship of Bahamut, and as a result, I roleplay that his rage is divinely granted, by Bahamut. Since "rage" is far more than just being really angry. It's almost supernatural by default, so having it be actually supernatural is a perfect fit.
Chaotic Neutral. A big part of this character is I really want him to ride the line between good and evil. Pretty much everything he does is in the name of good, but the way he goes about them isn't very nice to say the least. He's definitely an "ends justify the means" kind of guy. I'm always searching for ways to make this more complex, as I GENUINELY want him to ride that line- make people wonder if he's going too far- and not just be a good guy that does things in a rough way. I don't want him to be a good guy. I want him to have his flaws.
Background: City Watch. Before becoming a Barbarian, he was a town guard. Nothing too special here, though he did already have a penchant for hunting down criminals and giving them their just desserts. He wasn't quite so ruthless at this point, though. He ended up getting kidnapped one day, as part of a failed raid. He was taken into slavery, then rescued by a follower of Bahamut. This was the catalyst that caused him to become a Barbarian. During his time as a slave, he saw many terrible things that eventually caused a switch to flip inside of him. He became a little unhinged. Assuming the group starts at level 1, he would be pretty well just starting this journey, as he'd be too weak (just from being level 1) to do much on his own. Perhaps for a time he tried to continue working with the City Watch, though it's sort of a Batman situation (or really, the Punisher) where they can't officially recognize him, but they can certainly respect what he's doing.
https://dnd5e.wikidot.com/background:city-watch
---
Alright, I hope you found my character interesting! I know I really like them. Now let's get on to some stuff about me.
---
About me: There are some real things to discuss here so please, don't skip around.
I'll start with the basics I guess. I'm 26, male, and looking for a long term game. This would likely be the only game I'm a part of, so it would be very important to me. For this reason, there's something I need to be up front about, so hopefully it won't become an issue later on. I hope you stick with me through this part.
I am autistic. Specifically, Aspergers. While I could go for a time and be perceived as normal, eventually it becomes evident that something is off. This usually leads to frustration and complications.
Having Aspergers basically means that I can be pretty bad with social stuff. I have a way of unintentionally getting on people's nerves over time. I'm largely unable to read what should be obvious social cues. For example, when people start to get frustrated with me, and I should take it as a sign to back off or do something different.
At the end of the day, I want to have fun like everyone else. However, I believe I take the game a bit more seriously than most people. This can be a double edged sword. While it can mean things such as wanting to roleplay my character really well, it can also mean that I tend to get hung up on details. I like things to be orderly and make sense. I get that it's a fantasy GAME and people are just here to have fun. I am too. I just like to try and sprinkle a little bit of realism into it where possible. I tend to have long discussions (between sessions) about how things should be.
For example, I once spent a good chunk of time trying to get an understanding of how much the gold in the game was really worth. A perfect example of where this would come in handy would be knowing how much to tip someone, or try to bribe a peasant or a guard. I read through a few articles online, and ended up disagreeing with all of them. I came up with my own system, which simply made use of the income chart. So based on who you're talking to (peasant/guard/noble/etc), different amounts would be necessary to stand out to them. So you just look at the income chart and see what they would roughly be making per day. Tipping someone a day's worth of pay should be quite substantial to them (that would be about $100 or so in real life). Pretty quickly though the party will be swimming in gold and you could bribe a guard with a week or even a month's worth of pay. So yeah, I was pretty satisfied with myself for coming up with this.
Anyway, back on topic. So I suppose the takeaway here is that I will likely require a degree of understanding from the group. I do my absolute best to control myself and I've always been trying to improve. In fact I'm getting ready to start counseling. But there's only so much I can do. It is a genuine disability. And even when people are aware of it and are trying to be understanding, it still has a way of getting to people eventually. I don't want it to sound hopeless, though. I have had people in the past that have understood and never got frustrated with me.
At this point I want to reiterate. I'm here to have fun like everyone else. I do my best to get along with people. I just like to get caught up on details, and I have a way of discussing things which is very combative. When having a discussion, I'm trying to do better about acknowledging things I agree with, or acknowledging that I understand something they said. I tend to skip over that part and just continue on with questions and trying to explain things, which makes it seem like I'm not really listening, when I am.
So yeah. Hopefully I can find a group that's willing to take me on.